Plea Bargain

quit or try harder?
 plague of my life sits waiting
 under setting sun
 my daughters beg me
 for a morning to see them
 (no more predawn work)
 i try exercise
 to beg love for the body
 that i lost for them
 i give up dairy
 and drinking; saying bad things;
 but it’s not enough
 time swallowed by plans
 i will never quite finish
 (and ungraded work)
 i beg clarity
 from my second (lost) language,
 for tongue-trapped escape
 but it’s not enough
 to find that pivotal time
 lost in the shuffle
 i beg forgiveness
 from the self i promised me
 twenty years ago
 i hope i find it
 hidden in filtered sun rays
 that trickle through time


2 thoughts on “Plea Bargain

  1. It’s a bit easy to get lost in the middle between stanzas but I think it’s just cause I’m tired. Felt the longing to achieve in this one and the burden of being needed. Very good poem.

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