Shipment

i am in the bath
working my muscles back home
after Pilates, arm work,
and three days of absence.

the week is melting away
into a calm i have searched for
for months, and my jacuzzi bubbles
gather around me in a rhythmic hum.

he steps in, sly smile on his face,
his palms behind his back,
and sits on the toilet.
I have a surprise for you.

his hands move down
along the bottom edge of the bath,
obscured from my growing curiosity,
creeping up slowly into view.

and there it is.
the Ghirardelli peppermint bark
he stole away ten days ago
when he kept his heart elsewhere

now, he gives me a series of giant bars
to replace the small squares
i purchased half-off at Wal-mart
the day after Christmas

it isn’t the smooth dark chocolate
which writing these words
brings water to my mouth,
nor the spicy peppermint aftertaste.

it isn’t the girls’ lunches
who will never miss the delectability
that can easily be replaced
with leftover candy canes to please them.

it is the argument, forgotten to me,
the detail he remembered,
the online order and shipment
that brought me chocolate and my husband back.

Words

i sent the words
(there were clicks–
not yours)
i spent the time
(there were chips–
dark chocolate)

you didn’t respond
you couldn’t read
the words too thick
the chips already melted

you left them there for me
and i placed new words
under the light
words they shared in your absence

it was strange
having you walk in like that
not quite sure
if you should use your own words
or listen to ours

you waited
i wrote
(i always do)
you flipped off the light
that let them see
what i had written

in your usual manner
you ad-libbed
they laughed their usual laughs
but i managed to
feel less small
knowing they shared words with me

you stood in the back
video on
asking me a favor
(the chocolate
sitting in a back room
unrequested)

i took your center cut
put it in the microwave
and melted it for a perfect sundae

you won’t say a word
you will never know
just how warm
how perfectly cold
it tasted as i took my words
and swallowed them

Remedy for Bitterness…

or, Recipe for Flourless Chocolate Cake

8 cold-as-ice eggs
2 sticks of bitter butter
1 pound of BITTERsweet chocolate
2 cups wishy-washy water

1. Beat the crap out of the eggs for five minutes until they are filled with twice the rage that they began with.
2. Boil the water until it’s as hot as hell
3. Stick the sticks in the chocolate and melt into darkened mush that is the color of (bull)shit.
4. Fold the eggs into the chocolate and stir away until not a single bubble of rage remains.
5. Pour the bitter batter into the springform pan wrapped in foil that will hold off the bubbling hot-as-hell water that you will submerge it in.
6. Bake at 325 for 45 minutes, or until you insert a toothpick until it reemerges without any bitterness.
7. Serve 12 small pieces in order to wash away all bitterness with ten bites, twelve friends, and a few good laughs.

Baker’s Dream

Dear melt-in-mouth,
decadent,
softly moist,
rich and heavy,
applause-inducing,
smiles for miles,
limitless thanks,
not-a-crumb-left,
beautiful, loving,
flourless cake:

thank you for making
everyone’s gloom
wash away for
ten delectable bites,
for leading to
jokes and comments
that will tingle my mind
for weeks to come,
and for giving us all
a taste of true happiness.

Love,
Baker’s Dream